Morning Star Fellowship's Celebrate Recovery is wrapping up its third year.  It is hard to believe that the time went so quickly, but at the same time, I can hardly remember my life without it.

As we move into this new year of CR, our Ministry Leaders posed the following question to all of us on the TEAM:  What does God have planned for you/us Personally, Spiritually, Physically and/or as a Ministry?

This got my head racing.  I started thinking, "What will my life look like one year from now?"  I'll be honest, that question didn't sit well with me.  Right now in my family, we're dealing with some serious medical issues.  Thankfully, God's hand has been on us the whole time, and the situation is not as overwhelming as it first felt, but there are still a lot of unknowns at the moment.  Choices to be made about surgery, treatment and other things.  Part of my heart was yelling at the question, "WHY WOULD YOU ASK ME SOMETHING LIKE THIS NOW???  I AM HAVING TROUBLE PICTURING WHAT MY LIFE WILL LOOK LIKE TOMORROW!  I can only take things one day at a time.  Why do I need to look ahead??"

Not the most spiritual response, I know.  But, in the days since those feelings flooded over me, I've been seriously considering these questions.  Where will I be one year from now?

I may not be able to answer the nitty-gritty, day to day stuff of what my life will look like in one year, but there are some big answers that I came up with.  I will be doing the best I can to be the best mother for my son and wife for my husband.  I will be a part of a wonderful church that is right now helping us get through this troubling time.  And, very importantly, I (and my husband) WILL BE PART OF CR and will be actively working on our recoveries.  We don't know if we may need to change some of our roles until then, but there is no doubt that this family we have at CR will be a crucial part of our lives for our entire future.  I may not know now if I'm going to need to miss some Tuesday nights because of what is ahead of our family, but I know I will be in regular contact with my sponsor and accountability partners.  I know I will be sharing openly and honestly with other women about how I am doing.  I am going to be making my relationship with others and my Lord, Jesus Christ, a high priority.  I will still be looking at my life through the filter of recovery, always wanting to grow and improve and become more Christ-like.  I am going to be serving in CR in every way I possibly can.

I may not have like the question at first, but it has helped me see that even though there have been some pretty serious waves in the ocean of our household, CR and our dear friends within it, have been a big part of the lifeboat keeping our heads above water.  Without the power of Jesus Christ in our lives and the prayers of all of our CR family, we may have sunk.

So, now I actually kind of like the question.  Where will I be in one year - Celebrating my Recovery!!!!