I am happy to say that it has been a successful year since my last post.  I'm not necessarily pleased that it has been a whole year since I posted, but I am very pleased that I am still here one year later.

If you read my last post, I had lots of questions spinning around my head one year ago.  In this year, I've seen my God and my recovery program really work.  The phrase, "It works if you work it" is so true!  I did what I was hoping I would, and God worked!

Through the year of struggle with my husband's cancer battle, nothing kept me more grounded in God's truth than Celebrate Recovery - both the program and the people.  I relied heavily on many people for prayers, support, meals, rides, and to keep me accountable and honest.  I needed to be always thinking about my recovery - watching and being aware of fear, obsessiveness, self-reliance, or pride sneaking back in.  Having the 12 Steps and 8 Principles to help me process the emotions and my reactions to them kept me out of denial and able to handle my reality.

There were days when it was definitely "one moment at a time", but I wouldn't be who I am now without what we went through.  I feel more confident in who I am in God's eyes and know more deeply how much He loves me.

Thanks to God's healing hand, I don't need to wake up every morning thinking about the fact that I am a cancer patient's caregiver, but I never want to lose the feeling of dependence I had to have on God to pull me through.  I don't want to go back to my old "I can do it myself" way of thinking.  I want to stay changed for the better.

So, I move forward, not dwelling too much on the past, and pushing forward to my goal - being more like Christ every day.  I will never really arrive at that goal, but I know He can do a lot more in me, and I am excited to see where the next part of the journey will take me.